Friday, April 22, 2011

Butterflies....

Since my sweet Jack came into my life, was born, and went to heaven I have been thinking a lot about butterflies.  They are so beautiful....just like him.  While you are pregnant, you constantly think about how beautiful life is and how amazing it is to watch everything that grows.  While Jack was growing in my belly, I loved keeping track of all of his changes and milestones.  I am so proud of how hard he worked to become so perfect.   I'm also so sad that he's not here, on Earth....to keep growing.

Butterflies....pretty much a perfect creature.... also work so hard to become so perfect and beautiful.  Jack's memorial service was outside on a beautiful November day. My sister was reading a poem about how babies who go to heaven leave their footprints all around us...on flower petals....on our hearts....on butterfly wings.  At the same time, a monarch butterfly was flying all around...for the whole service.  It was amazing! I just kept thinking that Jack sent this perfect creature to me to let me know that he was okay.....maybe to give me an idea about how beautiful heaven is.

This past week, my sister and my nephew came to New Orleans.  One of the places we visited was the Insectarium.  They have a butterfly room.....they fly free all around you.  It is so peaceful there.  I looked at amazement at these butterflies and thought about Jack....about the existence of God.

How can you hold a baby in your arms and not have COMPLETE FAITH in God?

Thank you, my sweet baby Jack, for making me so aware of the beauty that is all around me!!!