Sunday, January 30, 2011

Today....

Today is my first time writing here.  I have wanted to start writing about my feelings and thoughts about my beautiful baby for some time.  I just wasn't sure how to start....where to begin. So, I begin with today....a beautiful day here in New Orleans.  My husband woke me up to let me know how beautiful is was outside.  Mornings are so hard for me.  Getting out of bed is so hard.  My first thought every morning is how I should already be up, taking care of my sweet baby.  On this beautiful day...I decided to go for a run.  I was an avid runner before getting pregnant, but put it on hold in order to bring my precious Jack into this world. I never thought about giving up "things" for a second...in order to make sure he got here safely.  I would give anything to have him here now.   I want to share all of my days with him, to hold him, love on him.  I want to take him out on a beautiful day......I want to hold him in my arms, lift him up and say..."hey Baby Jack....thats's the sunshine you feel on your beautiful face."

Today, it was just me....running through the park on this beautiful day. So many times I stop, look up at the sun and feel its warmth on my face.  I can feel the love from my precious angel shining down on me. I felt blessed to feel that today.

Baby Jack.....you are the love of my life!!!!