Today is my first time writing here. I have wanted to start writing about my feelings and thoughts about my beautiful baby for some time. I just wasn't sure how to start....where to begin. So, I begin with today....a beautiful day here in New Orleans. My husband woke me up to let me know how beautiful is was outside. Mornings are so hard for me. Getting out of bed is so hard. My first thought every morning is how I should already be up, taking care of my sweet baby. On this beautiful day...I decided to go for a run. I was an avid runner before getting pregnant, but put it on hold in order to bring my precious Jack into this world. I never thought about giving up "things" for a second...in order to make sure he got here safely. I would give anything to have him here now. I want to share all of my days with him, to hold him, love on him. I want to take him out on a beautiful day......I want to hold him in my arms, lift him up and say..."hey Baby Jack....thats's the sunshine you feel on your beautiful face."
Today, it was just me....running through the park on this beautiful day. So many times I stop, look up at the sun and feel its warmth on my face. I can feel the love from my precious angel shining down on me. I felt blessed to feel that today.
Baby Jack.....you are the love of my life!!!!
Kristen I am amazed by your courage. I know that Baby Jack felt your love today as he does everyday.
ReplyDeleteI know you miss him every single morning.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you!
Jack must be so proud of his mommy! This is sure to be a wonderful tribute to him and to the love you have for him. I miss him too, every day! I saw a rainbow peeking through the clouds the other day and I just knew that he was winking at me and saying hello. My amazing sister...I love you more than you can ever know!
ReplyDeleteJack is blessed to have someone like you honoring him. I think about you every day and I love you
ReplyDeleteKristen, this is so sweet and brave and honest. Just like you. Sending love and missing you and Jack.
ReplyDeleteHow this has touched my heart Kristen. You are a very strong woman. I am thinking of you all the time wondering about you and how you are doing. This blog is a huge reflection of your courage, your love for Jack and your will to survive this. You are amazing. ALWAYS in my thoughts...xo Robin
ReplyDeleteKristen, I'm so happy to be reading your words and sharing your thoughts. It's a gift that you're able to write and express yourself so eloquently and also a gift for you to be able to see Jack in nature everywhere you go... amazing and beautiful... just like you! :)
ReplyDeleteYour blog is just beautiful. Your story has touched my heart and inspires me to be a better person.
ReplyDeleteHugs from Sylvia